-Sunday, January 29, 2006-11:38:00 PM Y

AVENGED SEVENFOLD LYRICS
"I Won't See You Tonight Part 1"

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights,no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,I won't see you tonight

Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved

Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me, You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight

Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around meI cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away

Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,I won't see you tonight
So far away, I'm gone.

Please don't follow me tonight
An while I'm gone everything will be alright

No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight
No more breath inside
Essence left my heart tonight

Skulls are love'd

--11:25:00 PM Y

28/jan

bbq pit..min's bdae..man's cuzzie..the food's great..doze off..while de rest was playing murderer..haha..woke up at 230am..damn..lucky umar was still arnd..he sent me home..

i smsed d.d today..she was ohw back home..told her tht i backed out of the dancewerkz thingy...
asked her to do me a favor..make me hate her..she blur out..she didnt understood y..damn..it seems so easy..yet so hard..

at the pit..fyz told me something..so i told her something too..deres one abt me n abt this person liking this guy..hmm...damn...im sad.."sorrow..ran deep inside my blood..all the ones arnd me i cared for and loved"..i just suno wat to do..love sux..but life still has to go on..im still hanging by the moment..

deadlove

Skulls are love'd

--11:08:00 PM Y

Hold On:theBLEEDs

been holding on..
trying not to fall back..
get back to my senses..
get my feet back on..

heartbreaks do happen..
its up to you to move on..
make up ur mind..
do your best to go on..

its not the end of the world..
when something goes wrong....
just deal it with patience..
and you know you'll nvr go wrong..

life's full of upset..
ups and downs..
be smart abt it..
learn to deal with it..

ive been trying to move on..
but i went back to history..
which hapens all the time..
and i didnt thought it would end up a misery..
its not really misery i mean..
its just wat individuals have to say..
say ur hearts out..
to let people know..

im in love..
im in love again..
im in pain..
im back to heartpain again..

things do fail at times..
must not be dead for tht..
be strong abt it..
and you'll nvr regret..

put the past behind if u can..
begins with new chapter..
but dun repeat the past..
as it may destroys your recent chapters..

i tried to learn frm wat ive done..
i tried to keep my tears away..
i tried to hide my pains inside..
and put away all my sorrow..
i can cry if i want to..
i can die but i dont want to..
i can bleed to death..
i can cry till i'll dry..

itry to keep my feet on the ground..
i will do it with all my might..
i try not to fall again..
and be naive and blurred out..

i will be strong and remain..
to stand for myself..
my life..my death..my own..
this is my cry..

as this song ends..
everything remains inside for me to keep..
for wat u've done and wat ive known..
i hope its not gona pull me down..
i'll still hold on strong..
hold on and go on..
no tears i shall waste..
no heart of mine shall break apart again..

written by:deadlove
(29/1/2006)
TheBLEEDs

Skulls are love'd

-Tuesday, January 24, 2006-10:03:00 PM Y

im confused with my life..
its so confuse o fall in love..
it makes you go crazy wen you keep thinking abt someone too much..
its weird wat love can do to you..

Skulls are love'd

--9:53:00 PM Y

tonight ..i sing a song for you..
tonight..there's someone i ran thru..
you..just came thru my mind..
there's no one else..

i miss you..tht i gotta tell you..
im right abt it..its true..
i cant get over you..its true..
i miss you..

tonight..i dedicate to you..
a song..written by me..
with my words..deep down frm the heart..
its true..

you may be far away..
a distance i can say..
yet so far far away..
but you still make my heart sway..
when you're not around..
you're always in my mind..
seems so far away..
i miss you..

Skulls are love'd

-Thursday, January 19, 2006-1:35:00 PM Y

YeStErDaY's fEeLiNgS

close my eyes and move to the back of my mind..
where worries are washed out to sea..
see the changes peoples faces blurred out..
like the sunspots or raindrops..

now all those feelings...
those yesterday's feelings..
will all be lost in time...
but today..
i've wasted away..
for today is on my mind..

left the only worries i had in my hands...
away from the light in my eyes..
holding tight and try not to hide how i feel..
cause feelings means nothing..

i can't care to worry..
i'm feeling so lonely..
breaking apart all this love in my heart...

Skulls are love'd

--1:35:00 PM Y

Skulls are love'd

--1:03:00 PM Y

im so sick..today tk gi high elements..detty smsed me early in the morning..now im still in skool..comp lab..juz staring at the comp..updating rubbish..i miss d.d...i duno why im oways after the past...eventhough i move on..i still tink of the past..i m not sure why...

sick unwell

Skulls are love'd

--12:24:00 PM Y

Todays bulletin:My Group People
itz weird how i endured gerls in clss...ive nvr been so close to gerls..until now...nurses...my buddies think im pimp at times...juz bcoz im in nursing and...itz as if i noe all the gerls in sch..i only noe some..not being pelokek ah..tapi leks la brother..aku da quit flirting eh..da malas ah nk flirt2 ni sume...

Sara:the bubbly one...nvr fails to disturb pple..each and everyday..always making our group morale up siket...haha..very kecoh..but wen it comes to b serius...she cud be..shes like faizal..my best fren in sec sch...so noisy and kecoh tk perna stop buat org ketawe..ade je mepek yg dier nk talk abt..kdg tk tau wheder dier serius ke main2...

Nya:the irritating busted...shes my sis in clss..got the same daddy's name..we're the ABDUL JALIL..hehe..saniah is her name..she abit selenge at times..but wen dier naik loktang..begitu jgk dier nye mepek..menjadi-jadi..ahhhahaha..she sumtimes a sad gerl..suke simpan2 dlm hati..at times of trouble she may come to me to ask for advices..dun weri sis..in any case..i'll try to help if i cant manage k..

Pah:ni tk tau ape nk kate...same like sara..bubbly..kecoh..slow..at times selenge jgk...itz sad to noe her probs..sympathize her...cian..she got sister lup..haha..oways teasing pple...tapi part dtg dier nye slow...lembab mcm pentium 1..hehehe

Yanti:ni...org kecik dlm group..shes new in our group..took over nurul..ingtkn manenye pendiam ntah..skali same jgk mcm dorang..kaki menyakat..shes in my group too during clinical..so now i quite close to her la...her specs nice...so the specs tht i wanted..the one i oways wnted..hehe

hmm..thts it..pape yg dikate harap jgn diambil hati...korang je la kekwn aku kt skool..tkde lain..kalau aku ade the harsh ke pape ke...jgn marah eh..natural beings ah..and ingt wat happen tht time wen korang kacau aku pasal mmbrs...dun ever do tht again..coz i cant accept pple talking to me abt frens..i nvr neglect frenz unless aku mlas nk layan..i noe my frens...so spe yg aku tk suke aku tk layan..kalau aku masi layan korang means aku masi suke korang..jgn sampai kebencian tu menyirap dlm aku..hahahahaha..mepek ah aku ni..
and guys...sorry to say tht these gerls are attach'd ah..hahaha..
hmmm...im the thorns amongst the roses..and im the only one whoz single..hehehe...chey3..sedih ah konon...

the deadman walking...

Skulls are love'd

--11:46:00 AM Y

One-Eight-January-Twenty-O-Six
Shama's birthday..
i got up diz morning..vomits..out loads and loads of mucus(phlam)..damn..i omost forgot the term...hahaha...sure itz gonna be a bad day for me..last nyte i shivered the whole nyte..it was lyke cold turkey sey..so cold..

iwent to skool today..study wit maj su and zahidah..

5pm..working..but i reach'd so early to collect my pay..azhar asked to find a replacemnt cos he says tht i dun look well...so i called syawal..and he dun mind replacing the sick me...azhar said was gonna be busy...

dett decided to mit todae..coz she said she might be tired tmrw..so i meet her today..i was wit jay..we mkn @ bugis..dett n jay went on talking abt engineering stuffs while i jus sat and listen and listen and listen..i jus cant interupt since i dunno anything abt engineering ...jay went home...i went to th ESPLANADE wit her..we jus sat by the BAY..enjoying the breeze..i rest my head on the railing..looking at the fullerton hotel..so nice..looking at the skyscrapers..then dett lay on my back...its been a long time since....hmm...nonsense la buk..i miss dett for who she is...her TLC..her manje..hah..nonsense la buk...then we had to make a move as the rain started to pour on us...she suggested tht we go home as i was not feeling well..wah...so swweeeeettttt ah...hehe..but i wanted to spent more time wit her..but she insisted tht i shud go home and rest coz i go skool tmrw..so i need the rest..
urgh!!!got high elementSS!!!mepek ah...da buat da kat sarawak..i dun think im going..im so sick..im so lazy...

Hanging Dead Love

Skulls are love'd

--11:22:00 AM Y

7tEEn jAnUAry 2double"o"6
CCA orientation..AHS..104 in total when i left..idont know how many they manae to atrract after i left..At 4pm..i had dikir barat training..sume da karat sey!!suare sume da rabak..
weelll...ejah gotta noe abt my blog..she was quite pissed abt wat i wrote abt her..im not tht bothered..damn..i mean..i do still care..but i dun care..mix feelings i guess..itz juz tht i wont be able to get her bck..since mr tiger has taken my place..haha..never be replaced..yea2!!
well i got sick..having cold n flu..detty aadvece to take PANADOL..dier plak da jadi doctor..hehee..cute d.d..i kinda miss her though..gonna mit her on thurs..wish i jus tell her i miss her..hmm...i think i did..i wanna get tings to work between the 2 of us..but i dun think she wants to..she said she hurt me once..and dun wanna do it again..so itz as though shes asking meto forget her..hmm...5yrs....think abt it....
i reach home..had my dinner & went straight to sleep..and forgotten abt the PANADOL..

Skulls are love'd

-Monday, January 16, 2006-3:41:00 PM Y

15 Jan

meet up with hafidz,basheer and huda@ nat lib..i was damn late..i made the wait for 2 monkey hours..sorry guys..after things are done..i went ot meet fyza n nysha again..like yesterdae..today kite makn kt mac plak..smlm kat new york piza..nysha's food sux btw..duno wat the FAN-tastic abt the food..she said its like yucks..fyza oso got sick of her food too later..
well yesterdae..after werk i went to meet nysha n fyza..we ate at new york pizza..wel worth it..man came along @ the ltr part..man n i go to cut our hair..and then catch a movie..@ 930pm..MOONLIGHT IN TOKYO..nice..mixture of sad..happy..pityful emotions..must watch..maybe going watch again wit d.d..not confirm..niwaes..we did enjoy the movie..lepads tu balek..man antar fyza..n me..i walk to the busstop wit nysha..waited for her bus first..then i took my bus..
well i guess d.d also wentout wit sumone..hmm...im not sure..havent read her new blog yet..nah nvm..y shud i be jealous..i suck!!!haiz..
few days bck..i sms ejah and reminded her not to cut herself coz i juz watch sumting on TAB tv and itz gruesome..yikes!lagi bleh tanye how i noe..so i said"i not stupid!"
been thinking abt this girl alot lately..i cant seem to get her off my mind n chest..not lady _e of coz..shes off..wat the hell is wrong wit me..."you'll nvr be rplaced..you're trully a liar..A BIG LIAR FOR ejah plz!!
i think i m getting sick again..well i smoke again..shud i quit/cutdwn/jus continue????exam's nxt week..but im not stree abt it..im stress abt sumthing else..girl..i miss u...

dEAdlOvE

Skulls are love'd

--12:15:00 PM Y

1/2 a decade
when u let go..
i wasnt prepared for wat was gona happen..
when you left for someone else..
my heart broke into pieces..
i didnt thought you were..
each time i hold your hands..
i feel the love..the trust you have in me..
i didnt thought you would leave..

but that was half a decade ago..
now you revived..
you were silence for quite sumtime..
you've moved on..
so did i..
my each heartbreaks reminds me of you..
but you're still with someone..

you've changed..
i see..
i've changed too..
not only you..
but memories of us never dies in me..
you're still the sweet girl i know years back..

i have to tell you..
to let you know..
to make you see that im not invisible..
i want you to know my motives..

i wish i could see us together again like what the others did..
but that's just a wish that i dream of happening..
that's just my dreams..
i wish i could still hold your hand..
comfort you..
love you..
how i wish 1/2 a decade ago was now..

Skulls are love'd

--12:03:00 PM Y

my cry

forget watever we've been thru..
forget wat i've told you..
as wat i've said are just lies to you..

wipe your tears away..
stop crying for now..
coz you lied to me"u'll nvr be replaced"

no need your pretending..
how gd you were at acting..
saying you still have me in mind..

your tears..my cry..
dont need your sigh..
my hurt..your pain..
that still remains..
your tears..my cry..
can we stop crying..
you've moved on..
and im still standing..
though i can hardly go on..
you still remain in my heart..

Skulls are love'd

-Thursday, January 05, 2006-11:22:00 AM Y

happy new year!!

i noe itz a bit late to wish but still itz only the 5th day of new year..n todae is my frens bdae..kesian dier kt camp..confem tgh kene torture..hehehe
HAPPY BDAE AYID!!hahaha

well ive uploaded photos to my comp..tinggal nk post je..bnyk siol gmbr..but mostly taken wit sumone tu...hehe
SENTOSA photos coming up!!
wit some photos of slacking after werk which was new year's eve..new year..blablabla..

continue the rest of my stories ltr..so here are the pics...

Me and Dett waiting for the arrival of the late comers..

Detty Delina

The BLEEDs(sandy)

Dett lying on the sandy

superMAN..hahaha

Nak ambek gmbr..yg lagi due kat blakang tu pon nk join senyap2..haha

Fiza and Detty

Mizy tgh buat advertisement gigi..abey si producer tersalah letak background..accidentally choose a background monkey business..zak tgh tgkkn wan melompat..haha..gerek ah korang..syg semuanya!