-Thursday, March 30, 2006-1:22:00 AM Y

2nd last day of march..

she has been so quiet this few days..her rarely rplies..did i scare her away?
haiz..wen we talk..itz like im talking to a stranger whom i juz got to noe..she seems cant be bothered..thts wat i assumed..but i duno..ive always been assuming the wrong tings..i duno wat else to do..i dun wanna give up now..i still wanna keep trying..still wanna wait..but i need the truth..i still love her..amyl..
mayb she really is not well..or mayb..she is slowly fading away frm me?all this again..?haiz..im not well..but who cares..i dun care myself..she?i duno..i noe she cares..but not anymore i think..
my frens..no where to be contacted..bz wit their own stuffs until late n nyte den call me..
who do i have..my twin is sick..
i want amyl..but she cant be there for me 24/7 she said..
"ape u..kenape u mcm emo je lateli?itz lyke ure xpctin..............................."
tht break me up..whaat a qn to ask?itz coz i love u so much..thts y im so.............haiz..but u juz cant be there for me all the time..coz u got.......haiz..i juz dun wanna say it..
the truth is i only have u now..thts y im like this..i m so crazy..besides GOD..my family..u..yes u amyl comes aftr all tht..but i try to make u more imprtnt than the rest..
i wake up..check my fone..to see ur sms..but instead i got nothing frm u..
after werk i check my fone..to see ur sms..but wat do i see?i see my wallpaper..

r u trying to get urself away frm me?running away?fading awae slowly coz other guys interest u more than i do..mayb they got cuter smiles..haiz..im totally out of my mind..im crying inside out..but no one cud hear me..i noe tht ur in dilemma wit lotsa other guys after u...but..u...haiz..i juz duno how to say it..why mus u make me fall in love wit u..n den tell me to take tings slow after tht..i mean..i can take it tht way..but u told u love me and all..den now u say.....and ur not over ur past..at times i feeel how i wish i wudnt have known u..or even the rest..at the strt..i really cant be bothered abt this whole dance thingy..the comp and all..the poster was juz my aim to finish..i didnt want to make new frens..coz I CANT BE BOTHERED...but wen i see u..i see light..i slowly make frens wit the rest so tht i wont be seen to only be making frens wit you..i strted to have feelings for u..n i juz cudnt keep it to myself..so i decided to tell u..then tings go on well and everyting was juz fine till the comp dae comes..and come n come..den it ended n now is this coming to an end too..u keeping silence..no calls..no rplies frm u..i understnd ur feelings abt wanting to make people happy..and not wanting to hurt..but..haiz...i guess i have to go thru this patiently..i wanna cry...

lastnyte..i didnt sleep..how abt tonyte?m i sleeping?m i?not sure..now my stomach is empty..since my last break..well the most im really gona look dead tmrw..can i juz collasped sumwhere..??im breaking dwn..i force myself to stop all my nonsense juz for u..stop my flirting..for the sake of you..for the sake of being sincere..i forget my regretful love story juz to make sure tht u dun remind me of her..or my past..i want a new life..not to live wit my past..now tht ur doin this to me..i feel like ll this keep happening to me..the same thing..again n again n again..once i fall in love the gerls sure got their reasons...haiz..i wanna cry..can i cut myself..scar myself..

IM ALONE...no U..no U..no U.............

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