-Sunday, May 28, 2006-10:49:00 PM Y

She Will Be Love

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goodbye

Skulls are love'd

--10:40:00 PM Y

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Skulls are love'd

--10:31:00 PM Y

Only One

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one

My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

Especially dedicated to the only one..whom i always have in my heart..my mind..my soul..you are other half of me..you're another half of my soul..I just can't go on without you..
Will you ever come back to me?

Skulls are love'd

-Thursday, May 25, 2006-7:11:00 PM Y

haiz..now i feel bad about writing too much abt amyl..how i wish we didnt even met each other..how i wish tht dance didnt werk out at all..how i wish i wouldnt have known u..ur cracking me up..

u juz dun see the thing yet..i hope u'll realize one dae tht i nvr got the chance to explain myself coz u're owaes bz..

treating me like im ur bf..u see it urself..im not assuming..diz is true..i wanna say sumthing but not here..i realy want to have the time to really talk to u but u r BZ...understnd u..but do u actually make tht time..no..bcos y?bcos ur BZ..always bz...u will always have time for other things not me..then why treat me like a bf in the first place..i duno wat other things ur hiding frm me..mayb lots..now im assuming..bcos..i duno anything..n wats goin on now..i realli dunno wats goin on wit ur life..i wanna care..but u like dun care..so i dun feel like caring anymore...if u dun understnd..i myself dun understnd..i mean it wen i say i miss u..but do u?but i dun tink i miss u means a thing to u..itz juz werds..i noe ur life are full of guys arnd..awaiting for u out there..but y wen i juz mention sum1 else cute..u like unhappy..y?u still got others wat?im juz a small boy..still an idiot..i guess ur happier flinging..being famous..known by lots of guys..i admit ur beautiful..cute..very attractive..seriusly..im not lying..but u have to look n think out of the box..reflect urself..think3!

itz making me crazy each time i sms no rply..if there was even a rply..it wud be ur bz...hmm..unlucky me..wenever i sms je u bz..wenever others msg je ur not..

since uve explain urself abt tht guy tht uve not been talking for months..i shall shuddup abt it..but wat im not happy abt is..u noe tht ur out..u still hang on the fone..den wen im dngr discman..i yg kene..now im juz talking to the inside me..wat have i done wrong?wat went wrong?
i juz have no idea..losing my grip...

im losing my grip..
im losing my grip..

wil i be given the chance to perform in sch..?
THE BLEEDS

Skulls are love'd

-Saturday, May 20, 2006-2:00:00 PM Y

well..yesterdae...was a nice day..went out wit amyl after a long time..

evryting went fine..evrything was juz ryte..

Skulls are love'd

-Thursday, May 11, 2006-9:28:00 PM Y

damn..im still coughing.
now im like coughing my lungs n brains out..
my chest is killing me..my head too..
everythigns so painful..i feel so sick..
i m sick..damn

im waiting for a miracle to happen..
im waiting for tht lightyears to past..
im still waiting..
will promises made, be fulfilled..
will actions turns out more than werds..
let me see..
will wad has been said be done..
i'll wait n see..

wats life without problems..
sure it seems weird..
wats life with problems den?
pains..tears..stress..wat else..more on depression..haha
haiz..

i think im losing my weight..
i shud be gaining it...

love..itz a mistake..
who to blame?
not sure..both i guess..

haiz

Skulls are love'd

-Tuesday, May 09, 2006-12:31:00 AM Y

"Let U Go"

Broken promises
But you don't really mind
It's not the first time
And you know it, don't you now
Tell me why it is you only smile inside
But when you break me into nothing
Don't you know

It's not like I haven't tried
Over and over again
Stupid fights
Wrong or right
Goodbye...

I Remember when you came with me that night
We said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna but I gotta let you go

You're the one mistake
I really didn't mind
So beautiful, unmercifully
Took me down
Too little and too late
So now I know your kind
You fake it easy, just to please me
Don't you know

It's not like we haven't tried
Over and over again
Sleepless nights wrong or right
Goodbye...

I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever,that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
No i don't wanna but I gotta let you go

I gotta let u go...It's you...Theres nothing I can do

I remember when you came with me that night
You said forever [3x]

Here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna but I gotta
Let U Go

I remember when you came with me that night
We said forever,that you would never let me go
But here I am again
With nothing left inside
No I don't wanna but I gotta let you go

Skulls are love'd

-Monday, May 08, 2006-11:43:00 PM Y

hmm..the last time i updated was?hmm..2 weeks ago?u noe why?ive been really sick..unwell..n not forgetting coughing nonstop..been feeling down..been upset to the ground..but..still stnding strong..getting back on my feet each time i fall..no use crying over things tht juz wont werk out..i juz have to be patience abt it..my time will come..wen the time is ryte..

well been trying to make myself feel better..tried to write but my mind juz aint werking ryte..i dun take my medications regurlarly..my lungs juz feel like exploding..see..not feeling better at all..

last friday..i did sumthing stupid to really make me look like an idiot..from now on..my image..my looks..n especially my hair..i dun give a fuck..haha..i dun need to stare in the mirror so long wen im gettng ready for sch in the morning....so guess wat did i do?

saturdae was a fun day for me..i finally got rid of my hair..and then i was on my way to my frens hse..now tht amyl left..mayb bcos i got rid of her..i dunno..i dunno wat i did..shes gone..again..ejah was at the back of my mind..but i tried not to get bothered by it..shes attached..shes attached..shes attached..i jus cant get over her wen nobodys arnd me anymore..wen i got no one o love...she'll be back in my mind..though i do still feel the pain..i endure it..she wont confess..but i noe her..she havent chnged..

so i went to sara's place for makan2..ade open hse..i felt like i was overdressed..but do i care?nope..coz i was goin out wit my brothers n sisters..there..i saw her cuzin..the one she showed me the last time..her pic i mean..shes cuter in real life..hehehehe..hmm..she kept looking at me...i thought i was dreaming..but after sara too told me tht she thinks im cute..haha..alah...........

then i went to orchard..met man,zal,aib,mizy,fyza...den lynn came along..she was shocked tht my hair was like tht..we had fun..monkeying arnd..took pics..zal bought a bag..haha..he always shops..

urgh i cant write anymore..my brains' beating like my heartbeats..ouch..better get goin..i'll continue tmr wen i came back for my break..

Skulls are love'd