-Monday, May 08, 2006-11:43:00 PM Y
hmm..the last time i updated was?hmm..2 weeks ago?u noe why?ive been really sick..unwell..n not forgetting coughing nonstop..been feeling down..been upset to the ground..but..still stnding strong..getting back on my feet each time i fall..no use crying over things tht juz wont werk out..i juz have to be patience abt it..my time will come..wen the time is ryte..
well been trying to make myself feel better..tried to write but my mind juz aint werking ryte..i dun take my medications regurlarly..my lungs juz feel like exploding..see..not feeling better at all..
last friday..i did sumthing stupid to really make me look like an idiot..from now on..my image..my looks..n especially my hair..i dun give a fuck..haha..i dun need to stare in the mirror so long wen im gettng ready for sch in the morning....so guess wat did i do?
saturdae was a fun day for me..i finally got rid of my hair..and then i was on my way to my frens hse..now tht amyl left..mayb bcos i got rid of her..i dunno..i dunno wat i did..shes gone..again..ejah was at the back of my mind..but i tried not to get bothered by it..shes attached..shes attached..shes attached..i jus cant get over her wen nobodys arnd me anymore..wen i got no one o love...she'll be back in my mind..though i do still feel the pain..i endure it..she wont confess..but i noe her..she havent chnged..
so i went to sara's place for makan2..ade open hse..i felt like i was overdressed..but do i care?nope..coz i was goin out wit my brothers n sisters..there..i saw her cuzin..the one she showed me the last time..her pic i mean..shes cuter in real life..hehehehe..hmm..she kept looking at me...i thought i was dreaming..but after sara too told me tht she thinks im cute..haha..alah...........
then i went to orchard..met man,zal,aib,mizy,fyza...den lynn came along..she was shocked tht my hair was like tht..we had fun..monkeying arnd..took pics..zal bought a bag..haha..he always shops..
urgh i cant write anymore..my brains' beating like my heartbeats..ouch..better get goin..i'll continue tmr wen i came back for my break..