-Thursday, August 24, 2006-11:29:00 PM Y
wat is she doin there?
she took a pic of me while i was writing her sumting..
our loves letters......
it was a quick one..hahaha..
she says i look gay..yikes!!!!
sum say we're meant to be..but lets see...
beautiful smiles all around
lets look away.....
last pic of the day..thks for smiling all the way jaja..
well..we had a lot of fun writing to each other for one hr..no talking..one sound..and u'll get it..a pinch..hahaha
she seems to njoy it..im glad u do..
we'll do it again nxt time..more hot topics..
see u again...
Skulls are love'd
-Monday, August 21, 2006-11:07:00 PM Y
hey..
monday blues...
last ,sundaefriday,saturdae...hmm..total FUN!!!!
friday after werk i went swimmin wit man,yat n mr irritating zal..
zal was so irritating todae as alwaes..nvr chge...z buay jgk mcm biase..
after swimming...dey drop by my chalet...mkn2..zal nk step malu konon...hmpphh!!!at last mkn jgk!!z n zal..went off early..yat n man waited for jay to come bck frm werk..den i had to do clearing...got tings bck to the rm...
and i headed home..man n jay overnyte at my place..we had a very long nyte!!hahaha...fun ryte guys..jaja was there too...ssssshhhhhh!!!actualli she was on the fone..hehehhee..but we made her feel like she was there..not until i slept..hahahha...damn it buk..haiyo...
saturday:
went to slp at 4plus am...i woke up to sounds..it was my parents..they r home..hahahha..onli for awhile..den they left..was shock'd..so...after tht man n jay left..i was left alone at home...
5plus i left home wit man..
at 7pm..katit called..shes stuck at yck..her bike died on her..thts too bad..tkpe la katit..probs frm the bike do happen..juz take care of it..
nyte..the chalet was boring at first..but soon one by one came..zal..jay..didnt come..
saniah..sara..surianti oso..
as the time passes..i got slpy i duno why..seems so weak..
jaja seems mad at me..hmm...
dorang main game aku tido..weak kn aku?!!!
they were laughing their lungs out so early in the morning!!2plus..3plus..4plus..5plus..6plus..
dey jus didnt stop...hahhaha
i woke up evry hour...bcos of their laughters..
sunday:
brought up the things to the rm..the i left for home..alone......
pushing my lil bro's pram...hahahhaa...but w/o my bro..only my things the food...hahahha
reach home..bathe...then got ready to play soccer..but..i doze off..hahahha..
first i woke up at 8..de i slept bckl cos no sms frm them..den wen i woke up at 1030..i still see no sms...hahahhaha..sume tdo tk sadar nk main bola..
i went madrsah...jaja thot i didnt go...hehehe..ape da..after madrasah..i went to meet her at the p.ris park wit her sis..
she's nervous?duno why..weird huh...funy la u jaja...hahha
monday/today:
im supposed to meet her in the morning to chge her wound dressing..but i didnt wake up..
i woke up at 9plus...n i was so dead..i called but she nvr answered..oh no!!!!
shes mad...???!!!!im so really dead...
well actually she wasnt..hope shes not..well she said she was leaving her house oready..rushing..thts y she didnt pick it up..wow!!!so lucky...
i had to teman her to sch on the fone..hehehehe...bnyk nonsense kite share..n im meeting her in the evening to help her chge her wound dressing..
werk was boring..and sux..monday blues mah!!!haiyo!!!
but at 6..wen i went for break..i was excited to meet her..
well her wound strts to swell oready...but its ok..jus gonna help her take care of it...
im so happy....
went bck to werk..buat parameters...then i fed a patient..thru tube feeding..
den played wit the drip set..hahahhahahaha...
two E.N teased me...wat the hell..hahha
and now im at man's place updating my blog...hahahhaha..i went to newyork pizza..got a pizza..
shared wit man..hahhaha..
read his blog..felt touch'd...but part dier blang sume yg dier rogol aku tu kn..hahhahahaha...
haiyo..why mus u reveal it to public knowledge..hahhaha
hope man n jay njoyed the stay at my place...bukan slalu dpt overnyte ruma aku kn kn?
jaja..thks for being there too..(so call be there la..hehehe)
to those who were there at my chalet i thked u guys loads..thks for coming...miss u guys..n will oways do...
deryk deadlove hearts lovin'...
Skulls are love'd
-Sunday, August 13, 2006-6:12:00 PM Y
..day 3..itz sunday..
i talked to her last nyte..everyting seems fine to me..i apologize to her..cos i tink i over reacted..u noe wat im thinking now....????
i miss her
I MISS HER....
I MISS JAJA...
KHADIJAH BTE MUHD
she told me wat happened at werk..and she seems fine..
but this morning..her fone was off..i wonder ..
then it was on..
then it was off again.......
missed calls...i cant rmbr how many calls ive made..ive left two msgs..but still no responds..
i totally m out of my mind..im going crazy..
i miss JAJA...
Skulls are love'd
--3:20:00 PM Y
SATURDAY 12/8
My RTT is today..i didnt do any revision on anything..its juz aint my day..kept thinking abt her the whole nyte..till i jus cudnt get anything in my head..and i just thought tht wat happened for juz a dream..but it actually did happen..hmm
dont she even get it?she means alot to me..shes so special and precious to me..letting her go once was the biggest mistake i ever made..it was a totally big mistake..one stoopid mistake..
well..i failed my RTT again..after tht i was totally lost..didnt have any idea to go..lost..supposed to be spending my time with her but after wat happen last nyte..i guess she doesnt want o talk to me..
but..but..she did sms me in the morning..i think i got it wrong..
JAJA...
IM SORRY....
TRUST ME THT IM NOT MAD AT YOU..
Skulls are love'd
--2:59:00 PM Y
Friday 11/8
A day after we went out to catch a movie(me & jaja)
The Lake House
Jaja seems uncomfortable suddenly..she doesnt have a reason for tht..we quarelled..but i aint mad at her..i kinda get mad at myself..wat a FOOL?
She seems cold suddenly.......................
Well i taught her alll that:
1)be strong
2)stand up for yourself
She's ust afraid tht unpredictable things would happen again..
But i was sure abt my feelings now..i am very sure about her..no one could really replace her in my life..NEVER BE REPLACED
kinda hurt about wat she said..she broke me into tiny little pieces..but i cant hate her..ive tried tht for the past 1 year..It just didnt werk..I just couldnt hate her..
I LOVE HER
I just couldnt get to sleep ....slept for only an hour..she smsed me in da morning..
Skulls are love'd
-Wednesday, August 09, 2006-11:45:00 AM Y
life..hmm..ups n downs..
attachments..enjoying it...
ejah...lovin'it...
brothers n sisters..missing those times..
well..
i feel lucky..n fortunate..
im getting old..hmm..20 nxt yr..didnt realize tht..
soon goin for ns..
ejah...i want my future to be wit you..
dun think too far for now..
we'll do it slowly..
kisses of hello..
kisses of goodbyes..
hmm..hey..im stil ur fren..
n at the same time a lover..
im missing u everydae..
Skulls are love'd